I figured out that I only have 70 days left until I'm back at work. That is not enough time.
I still don't have childcare nailed down, and I still don't know if I actually want to go back. (I wish I didn't have a wonderful job and employer to go back to... it would make this so much easier.) I'm also acutely aware of how quickly Frances is learning... and that I won't be in her life nearly as much starting in July. It's terrifying.
I don't know how mothers in the States deal with going back to work after only a few weeks - I'm a wreck thinking of going back and I've already had almost ten months to spend with the girl.
*deep breaths*
Ok. Done whining. (But I'm still a mess.)
